One nemesis of single parenting

Im sure there are several more if I really thought about it, but for me trying to be "All Parent" is one that I struggle with the most. To describe what "all parent" is kind of difficult but essentially it is trying to be both mom and dad and doing a great job at both to my children. This is a constant struggle for me and has been for the past 3+ years as I have taken on the role as single parent. I can even recall a thought I had early on that my children would not feel the effect of only having a single parent, they would't have to hear their mother say, "Im sorry hun I just can't do that for you." (for either financial or physical restrictions) This motto of mine is running me ragged as Dennis and I have talked about even very recently. It feels like a cop out to me to have to remind my children to " remember I am a single parent while your friends have fathers who can help their mothers with running you around I don't." Even just typing that out gave me a shiver down my spine. Its not what I wanted, its not what I want and yet it is what I am living. One of the greatest struggles I have is this time of year.....Awana Grand Prix. Pinewood derby racing. Each year I have tried so hard, spent hours of my time working on these silly little pine cars to help my children fair and have a chance to win. Creatively we have done GREAT. Last year I think two of the kids took top awards in the creative area. Speed however, blah. My heart sinks. I even own a DREMEL! Is what I tell many who I share this silly sob story with. I own it but have't a clue as to what to really do with it. Im not dumb, I could figure it out, but time......we only have so much time. While I really didn't like the movie "Click" all that much, I did find humor in the idea of pausing life so you could catch up. And so this week as Friday approaches (check in night) I am sure I will be sharing the struggles on and off (if I can find the time to figure out HOW to make these wheels run FASTER!) Keep me in your prayers to keep it all balanced....please :)

This years entries.......a pig (with pearls...bible competition), a tinker bell float (yes cute), and a slice of cheese (who would think finding a small mouse would be soooo difficult!)

Do not give what is holy to dogs, and do not throw pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces." (Matthew 7:6).