Friendships

I don't know about you but friendships are an important aspect of my life. People who hold me accountable, people who love me for who I am, people who have been their through the best of times and the worst of times. I have a handful of people like that in my life. This is something I am more grateful for then words can describe.

Neek and her girls drove out late last week and are down here for a couple of weeks. While I don't get to spend all that time with her (she has to fit in other friends and family too you know) I do get to spend quite a bit of time with her. This means so much to me. She has been a strong footing for me through so many heartaches in the past few years. She was the first to show up and call out the support team when my house flooded all three times. Her and her girls where here trenching through water to help me in so many ways....I can never begin to thank her enough. The hours she spent on the phone with me through my divorce. Yes even the margaritas she made to get me through the absolute worst moments, she knew what I need and when I needed it.

The girls have changed so much in the past year since I saw them last. The next week will be treasured as I get to spend some time with them and her :)

Traffic leaves me . . . . . . . . . . . cranky!

I have yet to find single person cross my path that would ever state, "I just LOVE traffic", or "I love sitting at a standstill sitting on the freeway!" It simply is something I would have to say that 100 percent of the population probably would agree stinks. Funny to think about it really, we honestly have something in common with just about everyone, we hate being in traffic. Traffic makes me cranky.

The city of Vista, or I suppose the area of North County is putting in a new train (commuter) line. This train line is suppose to be operating by the end of this year. This has meant constant traffic congestion, and more construction constantly anywhere along the exisiting train line. This week the City of Vista has brilliantly decided to shut down the main street that leads into town. For how long you ask? Two weeks. Thats a really, really long time for an area of almost 100,000 people. Thats just in this small town, never mind the towns that connect up to ours. To shut down this street means they have been rerouting traffic. Where? Well its not suppose to be on my street, ours is the last non city exit there is in Vista. However, no-one seems to be reading the signs. The first night every half hour there was a dump truck driving by my house on the windy curvy roads going way past the 10 mile per hour speed limit. That left me hmm, a bit cranky I suppose, mostly due to lack of sleep.

With traffic starting at 3 o'clock it makes me want to burrow down in my home and not go anywhere for at least 3 hours. If life was that simple. With kids however, I have to leave to pick them up from school, shuttle them to and fro and well lets just say even more cranky.

Vista years ago, when I was a small child, had no one. We had fields and fields of grass to play in. We had wide open spaces between the homes. I miss that. I miss the simple life that living in North County no longer is. Honestly I can even recall when the freeways use to be empty after 10pm. Life isn't like that anymore. Doors have to be locked, we have to think about when and where we go at certain times of the day and we have to build fences to keep our neighbors out. Pity. But I suppose there is a price to pay for having the most expensive property in the Nation. I think however, I would trade it all in a heartbeat.

Take my breath away moments

How does that saying going, I think its something like this. "Life isnt about the breaths we take, its about the moments that take our breaths away"

This saying has been something I have been playing around inside of my mind as of lately. Where do those moments that take my breath away fall right now? Am I allowing for those moments to happen in my life or am I allowing the craziness of life to just get in the way?

My calendar for this week is more insane then it has ever been. With a daughter graduating 8th grade, more graduating parties then I would like to think about ( when did 8th grade become such a huge graduation time?) Neek coming in next week, my daughters guild aution, piano recitals for 3 of the kids, one week left of school for the girls, papers that need graded, conferences being scheduled, oh yes the important aspects like getting my hair & nails done (girls gotta look good you know!), oh and yes the simple fact Im working. My head is already hurting and its Monday. I want to have more moments in my life that I allow for my breath to be taken away.

One thing I can honestly say that I benifited from going through my divorce years ago is that I started to see things around be as they truely are. The trees became greener, the flowers more vibrant, and the little things in my life took hold as being as important as they really should be. I look at that as one of the biggest blessings God gave me 4+ years ago.

I am longing to sit and watch the waves crash on the beach again. I am longing to enjoy the beauty of God's world. I want more moments that take my breath away.

Don't Write me off

I watched the movie "Music & Lyrics" again for the 2nd time this month. Its fast becoming one of those favorite "feel good" movies I just adore to pop in. Today was a day I could relax but it was difficult. The kids were with their father, I had done all the cleaning I could do (or honestly, wanted to do) and in order to put aside concerns I have right now I needed a feel good movie. I was actually intending to watch a movie I went out and purchased today --Painted Veil, but as I popped that one in the preview for Music & Lyrics came up and I knew I needed that one instead. There is something every so relaxing about movies like this one, You Got Mail, Must love dogs, etc. Something about the normality of the characters. Something about the fact you feel like you could be the person in the movie itself. Today I got lost in the dream of the movie. The idea of sitting around for hours writing with a man you were falling in love with is so 'romantic' to me. Doing something you adore together, working together, learning about each other.........yep I know its called a romantic comedy for a reason. But the song at the end when Hugh Grant is singing "Don't write me off" yep I was crying.

Call me a hopeful die hard romantic, but one thing is for certain, my hope is always restored by watching a sappy feel good chick flick!


I liked this description:

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"Sophie Fisher: A melody is like seeing someone for the first time. The physical attraction. Sex.
Alex Fletcher: I so get that.
Sophie Fisher: But then, as you get to know the person, that's the lyrics. Their story. Who they are underneath. It's the combination of the two that makes it magic. "